Airbus

I started working this week in M&S for the summer, so I can carry on with my MA, Been in the Local Newspaper with my Airbus Project, which is great. But I still struggling to get show anywhere else. Still not got around to entrying an Opens or writing them proposal, I have just printed off quite a few forms that I am not too late to enter. I lost my confidences a few weeks ago but I am starting to get it back, just how mean times can I take knock backs? How many NO's can I take.... I got to start looking more at the good times that are happening and not bad....

Airbus

I have an up & down couple of weeks, I did not get a job I went for that would have stop my money worries.

My assessment went okay not very happy with my marks, but I deserve them. I let other things get in the way until it was too late to catch up. Lost my confidences in my work and in my abilality to get good job. I felt very low just starting to see the end of the tunnel.

Got offered a job working M&S had to take it even thou it's a good way too travel and hours are shitty. Husband not been very supportive, I feel He just does not give a shit, Would like some emotional support from Him.

Last Friday got an e-mail from Airbus they are Running with an story of my Art Project on their web-site and newspaper. So I should be over the moon but not, WHY is that?

The image of me and my work on the A380 Airbus...

It is a while since I wrote anything. I have been busy getting my work ready for my assessment which was last week. Not sure how I got on...

I have got to get down entrying Opens and writing proposals. I have not got anything after this month set up... It is worrying. I have just got to get some courage as I never so far got anything in any of these aert opens, Just do not know how many NO'S I can take....

Llan DC

Put up my installation today, my darling Husband came to help it was a good job I would since be there putting it up. I am pleased with it, had lots of people slowing down in there cars...

The trees had grown a lot since last week, So there will grown a lot in the next 2 weeks.. I would like the hoops to be higher up the trees but we could not get them higher because of the branches.

I still find it strange to see an idea that I have sketched come to live.. It is never quite how I see it in my mind, but I learn to like it will time. I usually have to go away and come back after a few days and look at it with fresh eyes...

Llan D C

Took my exhibition down today in Oriel Werxham, They phoned me up last night to see if I could help out witha childrens workshop this morning, so took down my work after that. It is strange feeling taking down your work... I fell a bit depressed, All that work. It looked so bare when I left it.. I some good feed back in the comment book, which was good...

I what to research the lighting and may be using mirrors too..

I need to learn and get to understand how different lights make different effects...

Going to put up my work on Monday in the Llan DC, do not have anything set up after Llan DC. Going to have to get down writing some proposals and enter some art open...

Llan D C

Been sewing again today, still got lots of metres to do. It will get done, would like it finished today. My daughter's 16th Wednesday. Got to get ready for that, Not got cake yet or any presents to open. I wrote she having her room done out for her Birthday, booked tenpin bowling for her and friend at the weekend.. So just what some small things for her to open... She got an Exam today..

Saturday cutting out lenghts of fabric, phone rang came to this, does He Know this is going to be art, He decided to go to sleep on.. I wonder did Picasso have this problem... I carried on cutting for a few lenghts He didn't move until I made him..

This is were I am going to put up my installation.

There is a stream running behind the fence....